ADELEE: "Joy filled that tiny bathroom."

 

"Last night I was restless. Emotions darted back and forth beneath the surface. Thoughts raced.

An urgency tugged at my heart. I knew I had to talk everything out to God or else I'd never be able to fall asleep.

So I slipped out of the bedroom and into the bathroom hoping I wouldn't wake up my hubby.

I closed the door of the bathroom and I began to write. Furiously in my journal to God the way He leads me to.

I poured out all my jumbled thoughts... and then I mentioned to Him that my birthday was the next day.

And the minute I started writing about my birthday I burst into tears.

You see there are painful memories that materialize on my birthday sometimes...

Sometimes old hurts rise up. Sometimes grief flutters through your heart like a passing shadow. Sometimes... you remember. And tears fall.

That's how I found myself sitting on the bathroom floor in tears.

I remembered the weight that used to crush me. I remembered the initial blows that left the scars. I remembered the pain...

But then I remembered God.❤

I remembered how He pursued me--like a loving physician consumed with concern for my life, holding a cure I didn't know I needed. I was fighting Him. But He was fighting to save my life.

I remembered the beauty of the bittersweet moments; the milestone moments.

I remembered the way He transformed my life. I remember the healing. The freedom. The beauty. The breakthroughs. The new life. The joy.

And my heart overflowed with worship. The enemy lost as I raised my hands and sang softly, proclaiming who my Heavenly Father was and all He's done... and who I am to Him because of His relentless love.❤

Joy filled that tiny bathroom. The kind of joy that heals a broken heart.

When I pour out my heart to God in the privacy of His presence, He turns my mourning into joy. And the place I don't want to be turns into a place I never want to leave.❤

There in that bathroom the One who knows me best and loves me most was singing over me as I sang to Him. And in that moment, as the clock stroke midnight on the
morning of my birthday, I felt my Heavenly Father's embrace.❤"

-Adelee